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Do you ever feel the pressure of wanting to have something profound to say but not having anything to say at all? That's how I feel as I write this blog. I so badly desire to have something clever and witty or a story that will make you all cry and draw you to your knees in repentance. I want this one post to make an impact in your life and draw you to the Lord. How do I do this though? Do I share what I've been learning recently? Do I highlight a spiritual discipline? I could potentially talk about someone influential in my life... Or maybe I should try to make an experience into a spiritual analogy. (Confession: I tried to make a story of people taking pictures of fireworks rather than just enjoying them into a lesson on faith.)
However, the reality is--I have no words.
And I'm learning that's okay.
I'm learning that not everything needs a response. Not every problem needs a solution. Not every sad story needs the glimmer of hope to be illuminated. Not every experience needs to be "understood". Sometimes we need to be okay with the Lord not giving us words to say. We need to be okay with patiently waiting and asking Him to keep guard over our lips. Proverbs 10:19 says "When words are many, transgression is not lacking, but whoever restrains his lips is prudent." In the words of The Message version..."The more talk, the less truth; the wise measure their words." Ecclesiastes 5:2 says "Do not be quick with your mouth, do not be hasty in your heart to utter anything before God. God is in heaven and you are on earth, so let your words be few."
I'm grateful God is patient with me as I learn. I'm thankful His grace covers me when I do speak out of my flesh rather than the Spirit. I long for the day when I don't give into the pressure of feeling like I need to respond when I have no words to say.