If I could describe in one word what I love doing the
most, it would be worshiping. I love
worship. I love to worship. When I worship I feel the Holy Spirit’s
presence. It is just me and God. I close my eyes and I sing glorious praises
to my father. It is truly a beautiful
experience. My heart feels so at peace
through worship.
So quick backstory: I have really been struggling with my
singleness. Like most girls, I am in
college and I want a bae. This is the
time when everyone has a bf—I mean it’s the college thing. Because then we get engaged senior year and
married after college—right? Wrong. At
least for me. I feel like I am
patiently/not so patiently waiting for God to bring someoneeee along. I get discouraged when I see my friends in
relationships-or even my own siblings. I
mean my sister is 14 and talking to 2 guys—and I’m over here 110% single. Lately, I have been reflecting on how unhappy
I have been with this part of my life. After
spending some time in prayer, I thought about it...I have had about three opportunities
to be in relationships. All three to
whom I eventually said, “not interested.”
Not because I didn’t like them as people or find them attractive
(because I did), but because they each had qualities that I knew would pull me
away from my relationship with the Lord.
I felt my conscious saying no. I
couldn’t figure out what it was—until recently.
Back to how much I LOVE worship!! I was worshiping and had
this pure moment of contentment. I
realized that my subconscious was really the Holy Spirit speaking to me---which
means God has been speaking/doing/being present in my life!! He is happy with
me and is planning my life so beautifully.
My identity is not to be through a guy. My identity is in
Christ. My joy is in God—and I can be content with
that. God is my comforter. While, yes, He has someone wonderful planned
for me. Whoever that guy is someday will
not complete me—because only God completes me.
Instead, he will compliment me. I
pray for my future husband. I pray that
he loves the Lord more than he loves me.
I pray that he is a humble servant at the feet of God. I pray that he listens and obeys. I pray that he is hilarious. I pray that he has a heart so so so big. I pray that he has a desire to share the
gospel with many nations & peoples.
I pray that he is loving. I pray
that he is kind. I pray that he is all
mine. Someday. Until then I wait. I will pray. Content. Glory to God. The time spent worrying/wondering/anxious is
time that God has called us to love people and share his great news. God’s great love is so overwhelmingly
wonderful.
Isaiah 26:3 – “You
keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in
You.”
Hey everyone! I'm Kayli Rivera! I'm a junior at Old Dominion University. I am majoring in human services with a minor in special education. I'm from Loudoun County, but my family now lives in MN. I love spending time with my family & friends. My favorite food is cheeseburgers & I'm currently obsessing over One Tree Hill.
